Udta Kodukula…

Friday, July 15, 2016

“Smee, I just had my mid-year performance review this morning… I have asked Boss for a week’s vacation… I am taking the next week off…” 

An afternoon telephonic conversation with Smee (Smita – my wife – for the uninitiated)… I had informed her earlier this Thursday…

Silence… 5 seconds… 15 seconds… 20 seconds…

“Smee… you there…?”

“You will go back to your job after the vacation, right…?”

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20 seconds… was Smee swarmed with a plethora of emotions…?

SURPRISE… performance appraisal in the morning… vacation decision in the afternoon… and it’s not even vacation time for the kids, which he had been synchronising his own vacation time with, for the last many years ever since they have been in school…

INTRIGUE… why now…? what’s the need…? just 6 months ago he took a vacation… why does he need this break every 6 months… and then those 2 days in April, when Krtin, our son, went through his “Upanayanam – the Thread Ceremony”… those 2 most stressful days of Ravi’s life… caused largely by his own impiety with which he had practiced the “Gayathri Mantra” which, in all honesty and devoutness, Ravi needed to transfer to Krtin… which he did an average job of… bordering on the lousy…

RAGE… no discussion at home… not even a hint that this was coming… except the rant about the 90km daily drive that he has been tirelessly doing over the last 4 years… and the more recent crib about how tired he feels… and how badly he wanted a 2 year sabbatical…and how he cannot complain to his Boss… lest his Boss gives him both “REVITAL – Jiyo Jee Bhar Ke – Kyonki Thakna Mana Hai” and “Hamdard Ka Tonic CINKARA – because this Bechara is Kaam ke Bojh ka Maara”… and moreover… if it is a sabbatical that he wanted, how will this one week really help…

CONFUSION… did he ask his Boss for the vacation…? and could the performance conversation have triggered his plea for the vacation…? or… did his Boss ask him to take a vacation…? or… did Ravi have such a good 6 months at work… or…

JOY… finally… if fortune favoured a turn of tide… and a change of heart… Ravi might just end up lending a helping hand to support Kavya, our daughter, during her exam week – which by some crooked twist of fate, also happens to be the next week…

DEPRESSION… is my JOY short lived…? is he just going to pick up the Pajero and drive off on that week long trip that he has been dreaming about… to the south to Goa… north to Delhi… or east to Hyderabadu and meet all his cousins… or worse, meet mine without me in tow… what will my cousins think of him… and me…?

FEAR… or if the roads are bad because of the monsoons… will he take that adventurous drive west into the Arabian Sea…? I have been worried ever since I woke up with a start the other night… and saw him in the dim of the night, with both his hands flailing in the air as though holding the steering wheel… and pushing his right foot alternately on the wood and steel rims at the two far ends of the bed… and mouthing those ample expletives in Punjabi…? has he started driving in his dreams too…? does the 90km daily drive for 4 years lead to this…? I hope the driving weed hasn’t got to him… UDTA KODUKULA…?

CONCERN… is he really going to go back to work…? if not, in this Fursat Friday, is he going to hint to the world… or worse, write his next obituary of his demise in another corporate… and still worse, will he again use the same ‘Job-Leaving-Last-Day-Message’ which he does a CTRL C, CTRL V of the message that he has used in the last 3 corporates that sacked him… a message in which, only he is interested, and nobody else reads… who the hell has time for colleagues once you have taken a call to quit…? have you ever heard anybody celebrating an “Ex-Colleague Day”…?

TRUST… ok… no problem… he has been slogging real hard… leaves home at 7 in the morning… comes back home after spending almost 3 hours on the road everyday for the last one month… so, what if he wants to take a week’s break…? and gets his cells and tissues back in shape… have seen him completely dedicated to me and the family and his work… 20 years… it has been a great marriage… two kids… a Smartphone… and a Facebook Account… what else can a woman ask for…?

ANTICIPATION… I am sure he will reset his Boss-Banter-Brand equation right during this vacation week… the Boss through whom he sees the rest of his work world… the Banter, the dialogues in the dark, that he has in his job with most his work mates… the Brand, which he has never compromised on, ever since he started his life with Holiday Inn 26 years ago… he definitely needs this week for himself…

After all…

Knowing him… if he hasn’t discussed this with me… you bet… he doesn’t have any plans yet… but you never know… what’s that he keeps talking to me about that science he holds dear to his life – MBTI…? his type being ESFP – you never know when he flies off…

UDTA KODUKULA…

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While I amuse Smee with Robert Plutchik’s Theory of 8 emotions… and add a few of my own…

Happy Weekend…

Ravi Kodukula

PS : Smee – Definitely – I will go back to my job after the vacation…

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